waiting

I've been keeping myself in this place for so long, unwilling to let go and unwilling to move on. There was always part of me that believed it could have been different but I lacked the strength to make it so. I always told him that I was trying but in truth I could never see past my own pain. I didn't try to move past it and in turn I lost him and it keeps spiraling down further and further until we are where we are now, Slighty bitter and heart sore. He tells me that we will never be again. He's jsut trying to get through this week and then be done with me in a way. I will be gone from his immediate life, gone from memory. 2 years over and done with a future that is as gray as the fog in summer. how do you let love go?