To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful.
Bess Myerson


For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, It might have been.
John Greenleaf Whittier

There was a apart of me that died when it ended. After all the time that has passed that part has never healed, never even begun to heal. Emotions that I should feel I don't, they just slip by. I am unable to cry, only he can make me cry still. I don't think I will ever work right again. I know he didn't mean it and if he really knew how much he broke me it might break him. I told him once and he told me not to say that, not to admit it's truth. Everyday I move on, step by step. This has made me stronger but there is consequences for that strength.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Marianne Williamson

Quiet

it's snowing again. The world seems so quiet when it happens, like everything is wrapped in whiskers. I am haunted here as well among the white landscape. Somethings that I thought I had let go surface again to create storms in my mind. I'm not sure how to move forward and I know that I cannot go back. I wish I could let go and cut the ties that bind. All I want is to be happy in this life and for so long all I've had to deal with is sadness. The cold makes me want to be held but there is no one to do so. The one that I want is not mine to want anymore. The times are changing and I'm struggling to keep up. I don't know if I can.

dreams of the past

I made this move to be with me and delve deeper into myself. It is not about going back, even if I wanted to I cannot. What my mind holds onto are nothing more than dreams from another time. I learned what I needed to learn and now I need to move on.

I am beginning to realize how unwise it is to go back but I'm not sure how to stop