crushed

I had a horrific event happen tonight. I was driving to the store to get a little something for dinner. The road to my house is windy and dark, lots of trees and wildlife. I was going slow and out of the corner of my eye I saw a kitty. I was thinking what a cute kitty it was when it ran in front of me. I slammed on my brakes but was too late, I ran him over. I pulled over to the side of the road and ran over to him. He was dying and in shock. I picked him up and carried him to the side of the road. There was blood coming out of his mouth, his little collar with a bell on it was been thrown to the side in the accident. It had to be the most traumatic thing thats ever happened to me. I love cats, love them to pieces and to see this poor little kitty dying because I hit him. His family will be wondering what happened to him. I wish he had a tag with a number. I left him by the side of the road, I sat in my car and cried for an hour. Pain just poured out of me. Brandon is going to make a little box for him and we are going to find his owners tomorrow.
I was so excited about leaving for Burning Man and Basura Sagrada, now I feel just sad and hopeless.

Dust Bound

I leave on Tuesday for the playa
It's been a journey to this place, a beautiful one at that. I was at American Steel this weekend for my last work weekend for the temple at the warehouse. It's going to be such a change to see it being assembled on playa. All the pieces that we sat on the dirty, dirty floor for hours patiently painting dots upon dots is all going to be worth it. As I drove my car away this morning heading back to Santa Cruz knowing that this was the last time I would be at American Steel in this capacity a tear started to form, then another. I cannot express in words how beautiful and amazing this project has been for me.
I've grown closer to existing friends and made new ones, I've learned a lot more about what I want in my life, and I've grown as a person. plus I learned how to drive s tick shift (thanks Big Jim!)
So I'll see you all in the dust, if you get this in the next couple of days send me the details on where you are camping! And please, please come see the temple. It's a labor of love on all parts.
Brandon and I will be somewhere around or in temple camp, so look for us there. I'm sure we'll be at nexus a great deal too.
love,
stars,
and
all
that