It's been a year it it still tugs at my heart. A dull ache that never seems to heal. I saw him last night. So much time has passed between us and the sight, touch, even smell shouldn't tear me apart but it does. I have begun to come to terms with the fact that I might never work right again. So much pain on both sides. There are times when I think I'm free from it but when I see him it all comes rushing back. The sad thing is is that I'm nothing to him now while the dream of him continues to haunt me always.