Rainbows

To me Colorado is all about rainbows, I see them all the time there. On my way to Denver Friday night there was a rainbow the went over the freeway,I drove right through it. It was so beautiful and bright. It was a beautiful end to my time there.
I'm back in Santa Cruz, the whole move was very emotional for me. I love Colorado and I love my friends there. If I could somehow live both places I would. I wish I could have spent more time there but in reality it's never enough time, we all have to leave sometimes. Two days of driving through hot climates with my cat in the back seat to finally make it to Santa Cruz at 3am. I felt misplaced and lonely. I spent the next day sleeping on an off trying to recover from a long trip and partying in Boulder. It was nice to finally have my kitty with me sleeping next to me. Now comes the fun of unpacking all my boxes and trying to find space for everything I brought back! But that can wait, I'm off to Lightning in a Bottle on Thursday!!!!

Scattered

I'm back in the rocky mountains to get the rest of my belongings to make the final move to Santa Cruz. It makes me sad to know that my time here is over. I really loved it here (except getting my car stuck in the snow). it's beautiful all the time and Boulder is so cute and small. I cried last night when I thought about leaving. We all have to move on sometimes.

I leave for Colorado next Tuesday. I am very excited to see the rockies again. Being there had a profound affect on me and it is something I never will forget. If I hadn't of fallen in love with Brandon I might still be living there which wouldn't be so bad. I do love those mountains, so beautiful. It seems like it might be good spring weather when I'm there. Hmmmm warm ,spring boulder, sounds delicious like ice tea on a hot summer day. See you soon rocky mountains!

Life is

Bliss
I've come out on top from a challenging couple of weeks
it feels so good to be where I am at this moment

Breaking Open

This last week has been a release or rather a breaking open of my self into something else, maybe my true self??? I'm not sure at this juncture what I will turn into. I feel myself taking more time to breathe, listen before I cry and ask the universe for lessons in forgiveness. Not all it what it seems and most of what my mind makes up is false, the demon playing tricks on me. Trying to keep me from moving forward when I so desperately need to. I keep reminding myself that life is perfect as it is. Each moment I let go a little more, let a little more light in. In hopes one days I"ll have my own garden that I alone planted.

I feel raw, exposed
like I am lying naked in the snow

It's getting better, bit by bit
He ran after me in the parking lot
the after saki craze
growling, laughing
he is heaven