It has taken me this long to wade through what I went through and continue to go through after this years playa adventure. I still cannot completely comprehend all of my feelings but will try my best to sum it up a little.
The whole experience of Basura Sagrada was a journey for me. I was at a time in my life where I was floating. This project landed on my lap so to speak and it was exactly what I needed to evolve to where I am now.
In my position as volunteer coordinator I had the privilege of speaking with hundreds of people that the temple already touch without even us painting one dot. Through out this whole process I have a expanded base of friends that I call family. Everyone of you has touched my life in a deep way no matter how little contact we had. A few of the all stars: Medina, Shira,Candice, Brent, Tucker, Andrew. Dr Wunderlich,Shrine, Genevive, Brando, Big JIm,Edward, Jessica, Matt, Linda,Patrick, Doug Sinclair, Matt (crane operator), Sean, Nikki,Kelsey, Foxy,Gabe, Jack, Guilia, Josh,Tim, Victoria, The whole groove bomb crew, I know there is more but thats all that comes to mind right now, plus everyone who gave me coffee when I needed it so.
Doug Sinclair told me that I had wings, bright blue wings and even though I could not feel them I will someday because they are a apart of me. So many people looked at through those eyes this year, I had wings to many and by the end of Burning Man I was beginning to see them myself.
This year was extemely difficult. I worked the whole time, whether DPW or the temple I was so quiet. I did not see any art, nor did I see any friends besides the ones I was camped with. But I made over a 100 new friends through out my time there.
I laughed and I cried, died and was reborn again. I know what direction I want to take in my life and have the vision to take it. As Median said the bar has been raised. I want to create and provide to the community that I call home.
When I returned from the playa I entered into a state of confusion about what to do next, I then realized that it is up to me to create something new, to put that energy out that I want for my next project. The sadness lingers still for I miss my new family terribly.
I'm still not entirely clear where I will go from here, it is still vauge but getting clearer.
I did learn that I am strong and I do have worth and that is something that I will never forget.
