I realized on the plane while the snow capped mountains glided past me blow that it was just too far gone

I've come to a point where I think I've died, not in the way of never returning to this plane but I feel as if I've suffered so much loss and have lived through so much turmoil that I've come to a place of rebirth. The last month has been one of the best and one of the worst that I have ever lived through. So much has slipped through my fingers like sand but I'm still here, breathing, living. Proof to my head from my heart that I can endure. Now it's wondering whats next for this little bird??

I'm sitting in this crazy cafe by the beach listening to a mix made for me by and old lover. It's the soundtrack to my afternoon it seems, old lovers and old memories. I'm trying not to live in the past at this moment, it's hard though when you get assailed my memories at every turn. My mind has become so tired trying to keep them out. Today I just gave in and let them waft through. I remember the taste of his mouth, the smell of his neck. Senses that intoxicate my being through and through. I reach out in the dark to find out that he is no longer there but the music stays in my mind for some kind of eternity.
Movement
at every turn
I wait for
your touch
to take me
There were moments that I loved you all and then none. Life continues to pass on by and I grab something to hold on for the ride.
I miss you
always
here's to soundtracks at sunsets

"Duct tape is like the force. It has a light side, a dark side, and it holds the universe together." - Carl Zwanzig

It's time I learned how to fly

There isn't a minute that goes by that I don't miss him. evolution=hurt

Good Woman

I want to be a good woman
And I want, for you to be a good man.
This is why I will be leaving
And this is why, I can’t see you no more.
I will miss your heart so tender
And I will love
This love forever

I don’t want be a bad woman
And I can’t stand to see you be a bad man
I will miss your heart so tender
And I will love
This love forever
And this is why I am leaving
And this is why I can’t see you no more
This is why I am lying when I say
That I don’t love you no more

Cause I want to be a good woman
And I want for you to be a good man

by Cat Power

Yesterday my heart broke open. It was the end of an era for now. When all of this started over a year ago I ha no idea I'd be where I'm at now. I thought it was going to be different, I dreamed it was going to be different. Brandon I can honestly say that you are one of the greatest loves of my life. Everything we've done and been through will always have a special place in my heart. With out you I would not be. I can only hope that this time of challenge will pave the way to bigger and better things in both of our lives. I only hope to never lose your presence in my life. I will always love you now and forever.

By Swan

Lyrics that touched me


"i held on to you for dear life,
while my dear life passed me by"